I Think I Got it Figured Out...

This is a follow-up to my last post...THE universal question. And though I appreciate all answers and suggestions given, both online and off, I've come to a conclusion. After much thinking and praying (and smirking...), I've been slapped upside the head with the answer. At least, the answer for me, for now...

Wanna know what I discovered? I was wrong. That's all it was. Here I was, working my tail off to figure it all BY myself, FOR myself, when it's not about me at all.

Last night was the first night of our kids' Kid's Club at a local Baptist church. It's sort of like Awana and they've been looking forward to returning since last May. Well, with my husband home sick, it was my job to get them there last night. The trick is, Julia, our youngest, never let me leave her in the nursery before. She's been getting better with the separation stuff, so I thought I'd give it a shot last night. I told her, the nursery worker, and myself that I needed her to stay so I "could go upstairs and be fed." It was about me and what I needed, which is all I've been about lately.

Well, she stayed...mostly...but that's not the point of my tangent. I made it upstairs with high hopes of spiritual insight and Biblical teaching and challenge, only to find out that Wednesday night is their prayer meeting. All we did for 20 minutes was share prayer requests, update previous requests, and share praises. Then we prayed for another 20 minutes. I was hopeful the pastor would open up the Word next when he simply passed around a little sheet that held prayer requests for their upcoming Revival Meetings. I had to then leave to get the crying Julia, but they were headed for another 15 minutes of praying for the Meetings.

God reminded me in that time that it's not about me. I've been so obsessed with getting MY stuff done, taking care of MY health, running MY agenda, that I forgot that my focus should be on others. This morning, He showed me these:

If I then, your Lord and Teacher, have washed your feet, you also ought to wash one another’s feet. John 13:14

A new commandment I give to you, that you love one another; as I have loved you, that you also love one another. By this all will know that you are My disciples, if you have love for one another. John 13:34-35

Rejoice with those who rejoice, and weep with those who weep. Be of the same mind toward one another. Do not set your mind on high things, but associate with the humble. Do not be wise in your own opinion. Romans 12:15-16

Bear one another’s burdens, and so fulfill the law of Christ. For if anyone thinks himself to be something, when he is nothing, he deceives himself. Galatians 6:2-3

This is not to say that I should ignore my health and not take care of my house. But I do need to stop obsessing about it all. God already knows the results of my CT scan, even if I don't. God knows which timeslot will open up for me to run a vaccuum later. I don't know how to pay for a project I'd like to get done, but He knows if I'm supposed to do it and if so, how it will come about.

And I need to trust in that.

So, this morning I "purposed in my heart" to get up earlier, get back from the gym sooner so that I can spend time in prayer for those in my life and around me. I started a prayer journal to keep myself accountable and to see prayer answered. We had such a great time this morning, just focusing on God's power and strength in other peoples' lives.

And I'm going to really step out there and challenge any of you to do the same. We all often get so wrapped up in our own busy lives, that we think our situations are unique. They may be unique to us, but God wants us to remember that He's seen our circumstances before. WE are unique to Him, not our problems. He will provide what we need when we need it and our eyes ought to be on His provision in others' lives.

Otherwise, it's just too easy to make it all about "me." Will you join me?

Philippians 4:19
And my God shall supply all your need according to His riches in glory by Christ Jesus.